Sunday, August 31, 2008

Go! Face the wall

We often want to get what we want but sometimes, wanting something so badly can do no good to anyone. Our eagerness can lead us to the dark side or may leave us frustrated. In many years of struggling to survive, I tend to succumb to what is laid for me. I got tired of fighting in what I believe in. I got so occupied by non-sense things that I seem to forget to value the people around me…. to value my own being.

I wish I can go back to the time where I started to fall apart. I could have faced my anxieties back then. I should have not runaway from it. I wasn’t able to settle some issues that led me to this weak emotional foundation. Sometimes, regret will just hit you in your face but we cannot live in a world full of regrets as they say. And no matter how angry I am to the people who turned me in a beast, still I am thankful in a way. Mistakes are the greatest lessons in life. It made me more human.

I’m hoping to shape myself to the way I used to… before all the pains and suffering. This reminds me of the homily in today’s gospel. The priest mentioned that there is no resurrection if there is no crucifixion. Suffering comes in our way but these sufferings will lead us to a much better place. “Nasa Diyos ang awa, Nasa tao ang gawa”, I remember father telling that to everyone who attended the mass tonight. We should not blame God for all our sufferings but we should be thankful for it but it is molding us to become a better person.

The biggest challenge in this world is to be able to face the mirror without being scared of what you will see. Believe in yourself that we can face our problems and achieve our ultimate goals. Right now, I can’t just look back and throw tantrums at anyone. Partly, as I’ve said, I am thankful for I have learned. Although, sometimes (just like this very moment) I hate experiencing "this" certain phase in my life that led me to be this vulnerable.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Dodos 8

Happy birthday to me! Happy birthday to me... happy birthday happy birthday... happy birthday to me!!!!

I had a blast on my special day. Spent it with the people so dear to me. =) There's nothing I could ask for, I feel so blessed and I thank God, my family, friends and my Ninja for making everyday of my life so light, so happy and close to perfection.

I have a lisp when I was in my early stage and most people I grew up with still remember my "dodos 8". Now, I'm a full-grown woman trapped on a kid's body. ahahhaha. Things are different now and I am much responsible and matured. Yes, maturity comes with age and experience. This only means that all the challenges I've been through has been an integral part in making the better "ME". Nothing is greater than what I feel right now. There's so much happiness. Thank you for the 28 wonderful years and also for the coming years to come.

888 has been a buzz for sometime now. Lucky 888 as they say. Well, I've always been lucky regardless of any phenomena or whatever the feng shui master has to say. Lucky me!


Friday, August 8, 2008

Updating my wish list

1. done with my Nth session for laser hair removal
2. hair treatment
3. body scrub
4. a good massage
5. a much needed vacation
6. savings!!! savings!!! and more savings
7. graduate from my anger management class
8. techno strap
9. new comfy shoes
10. hot jeans
11. flattering tops
12. eternity ring or "that" necklace
13. laptop --> i'm using Ninja's laptop anyway. dont need one. =)
14. stop myself from reading and reading and reading w@w page everyday. Pde 3x a week lang. ahaha
15. get serious on things that matters most
16. to be more firm with all decisions I make
17. be more care free
18. Shu uemura eyelash curler ( not sure my the spelling)
19. estee's green tea - got D&G Light Blue instead.
20. facial steamer ahaha
21. excercise
22. attend mass as often a I can
23. little charity work
24. house - Ninja's wonderful gift hehehe
25. business
26. revive my brain cells
27. spend more QT with Ninja
28. good health


I got more than I've wished for. Surprise from my Ninja, a great time with my family & friends... all of these are treasures that money can't buy.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

BuzzZzz

Buzz 1: Wazzup duck? just doin the count down dude! 5 days to go (in 2 hours and so) and I'll be a good-looking 28 years old woman. Yes, woman!

8-8-8 is so in the hype for most peeps especially those instik / feng shui expert. They marked my day as a very very very significant day. Thank you! There are about 70+++ wedding events on that day. If im not mistake, probably 3-5 concerts. etc,etc,etc. damn, I just can imagine the traffic. Just like other wanna-be(s), I would like to celebrate my day with a BANG. I actually wanted to get married on this date but of course, I'm not. 2 more years honey!

Hey baby.... ang tanda mo na!!! Syet. ahahaha

Buzz 2: I saw a site that made me laugh and get annoyed at the same time. talagang nandun dba!!!! natatawa nlng ako.

Buzz 3: I can sense something but I just don't want to make pansin about it. anyway, im doing fine here and i dont care anymore.

Buzz 4: Anton Miguel Felipe Filart is the newest member of the growing clan of the Felipe's. Growing. I'm telling you how huge this is.

Buzz 5: At almost 28, I am doing stunts and dancing. My gosh. This is the reason why I am limping for days. Call me an over-aged dancer. ahahaha. New bff - Alaxan FR and pasaSSS.

Buzz 6: I was able to save 2K (that's huge men nowadays!) Got my credit card's annual fee for Free. Nice.

Buzz 7: I had my first PS last month.

Buzz 8: things are moving into place right now and it's really making me happy. dreams do come true. Thank God for all of the blessings. Thank you